More About Me

I haven't written for awhile, in fact, this is the longest I have gone between posts. I guess you could say that I imposed a blogger vacation on myself. I just needed to step away for a bit- I was getting a bit crazy with looking around at other blogs and comparing myself with other artists, which of course ended up with me being super critical of myself. Is this human nature or my nature? I have never thought of myself as a competitive person, but there I was even comparing the number of followers I have to other artists.... who had more, how long had they been blogging in comparison to me, etc. Ridiculous! So crazy! I am taking a deep breath and coming clean with the full reasons for my blogger vacation. I needed to regroup. I feel better now. And I learned a bit about myself while I stepped back which, in the end, is one of the reasons I started this blog (see here for more).

What did I learn during this short blog break?  Well, it turns out I really care what other people think... maybe too much. And maybe this need (for approval? or support?) is holding me back. I think it is certainly preventing me from taking risks- in art and in life. I really want people to like me, what I do, what I say, what I create. Of course who doesn't, right? But I realized over the last little bit that I am caring about these things more than I would like for myself. I want people to follow me and yet I have not gotten into following others because I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings if I don't follow them back! Oh my gosh, I am making my own self crazy just reading this! How insane am I???? How Canadian is that of me? Jeez. The awesome part of this revelation is that now that I know this about myself, I can work on it! I can work on not caring... or at least not as much as I have been. Me thinks there is freedom somewhere in this discovery.

And now it is time to join my family for supper...

to those who celebrate it...

HAPPY EASTER everyone!